I don't even know where to begin...I've been diagnosed with LPD (no big surprise) and they've upped my progesterone quite a bit.  I was getting one shot every other day starting 2 days past ovulation and lasting 15 days.... now I have to have 2 shots a day every single day starting 2 days past ovulation and lasting 15 days, so instead of getting 7 shots per cycle I will now get 30!!!   anyway, to make things worse, I started this cycle while on vacation, which meant we had to find a way to get the Femara so I could take it while camping (Paul drove all the way back to Tucson and picked it up), I took the femara (2.5mg 1x per day) cycle day 3-7 (5 pills).  After I started the process there was some hostility between me and my parents, so things seemed to be getting off track and I started to panick about the IUI.  I called the Dr.'s office to see what they thought I should do and of course they said we needed to at least do the ultrasound to see how many follicles were mature enough to release an egg (it would be dangerous to go ahead with the cycle if there were too many eggs), Thursday we went in for the ultrasound and there were 3 follicles (12mm, 16mm & 18mm) in my right ovary.  The dr. told me that we had a good shot at it this cycle but if we were going to do the IUI we would need to do the trigger shot at midnight!  I couldn't believe it, we had to make a decision within a matter of hours or the Apothecary would be closed!  I called my dad and we discussed it, he came to Tucson and picked me up and we went back to the dr.'s office and paid for the IUI & bought the trigger shot.  Paul did my trigger shot (Ovidrel) at midnight (Thursday night) which wasn't too bad compared to the progesterone shots.  Today I had my IUI at 10 a.m.!  We dropped the sample off at 9:15 and waited... I had to pee, so I did...and when I opened the bathroom door, Paul was standing there looking forlorned... he said they tried to stop me but didn't make it in time.. They needed my bladder full!!!!!  WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME THAT BEFORE???  So, there I am sitting in the waiting room drinking glass after glass of water until I'm ready to pee my pants.  Finally they call me back and they gave us wondeful news... 22 million motile sperm after the wash!  That's double what we had on our first IUI, plus the dr. was pretty confident that I would ovulate 2 eggs!!!  The actual IUI went very smoothly, only one tiny twinge when he first inserted the catheter, no cramping and very very slight spotting.  I'm resting now and very hopeful.

As I stated in my last entry, we were told to use barrier birth control so that they could do the biopsy without risking interrupting an existing pregnancy...well... I just can't bring myself to NOT TRY.. it's not possible for me, so I decided instead to proceed as usual and when the time came for the biopsy I would just tell them that our condom broke and take a pregnancy test to be safe.  I know, I lied, big whoop... I don't care.  Anyway, I told the Dr. and he said that out of all the biopsies he has done, 14 of them came back from the lab with placenta showing up in the tissue, meaning (obviously) that there was a pregnancy and 13 of those 14 went full term, and there's no way to know why the 1 miscarried.  So... I feel that I did the right thing either way.  Anyway, I won't know the results of the biopsy until the Dr. gets back from vacation on July 14th or so, but I'm pretty sure I had/have LPD (luteal phase defect) and I'm also pretty sure that the progesterone is doing it's job because this last cycle my LP was 12 days as opposed to 8 & 9 like previous cycles.  So... while we were at the Dr.'s office doing the biopsy I asked Dr. H what our next move was going to be and that I am getting impatient and depressed and he said that he is willing to go ahead with a medicated IUI when we are ready!!!  I have been waiting for him to say that for a while and he finally did!  So.. the next day I called my dad and told him how everything went and that the Dr. is willing to do the IUI and he asked me when we are doing it, I told him that we can't afford that right now as it will be around $600 with meds, ultrasound, sperm wash & Insem. but it's nice just to know it's a possibility when we are ready, he got all upset and told me he wants a grandbaby NOW... well no shit!  We want a baby!  We just can't afford things on the spot like that, we have to save up... so he offered to pay for the IUI.  After discussing it with Paul, we've decided to go ahead with it.  I can't believe we're finally doing this, and so soon!  My next cycle should start around July 22nd, so I'll start taking femara shortly after that and I'm not really sure how the rest works, I know I'll have to do a trigger shot that forces ovulation on a certain day, but we'll just have to see how they do things.  OMG, I can't wait! 

Yesterday I started spotting, so I called the Dr.'s office to let them know, they said that it "could" be implantation spotting, continue the shots and take a test on the 15th day... If it's neg. they want us to use birth control (condom) next cycle and do the same regime of progesterone shots and come in 2-3 days before AF is due for an endometrial biopsy.  Well, today I had full red flow, so I am almost certain that I'm not pregnant.  I called them and scheduled the biopsy for June 18th.  I just don't understand this, it hurts so much and we keep trying to do whatever we can and we're getting nowhere.. I just don't know how much more strength I have.  Now I'm terrified they are going to find something horribly wrong with me and I can't help but get depressed.